Up we go...

This blog was supposed to be a reminder of those moments when I feel all motivated and ready to rock.... however, it is turning out to be a reminder of the times when I hate this. And when I get knocked down. BUT I ALWAYS get back up again, and I ALWAYS will. That is what it's all about.

That 10 lbs I lost, was cheated weight loss. I did the HCG diet. Bad choice on my part because I had my "lady time" for 4 out of 5 weeks STRAIGHT and then didn't do the doo doo for 2 weeks... Dr. said to stop doing the diet and become best friends w/laxatives and water, YAY me......

I COULD have kept that weight off, however... I was so excited about having lost 10 lbs that I figured I could eat whatever because I was skinnier now. HA.... we all know better. Top that off with COMPLETELY slacking on my workout schedule as well.

6+ lbs later, I'm here feeling gross, knocked down AGAIN and discouraged. AGAIN... Last night consisted of me kicking my own trash for getting back to basically where I was. Bloated, tight clothes, irritated at myself, negative, and in the "gave up" mode. Why is it that I am all or nothing.. gung-ho or junk food queen? Neither seems to last too long, but this up and down business is BALONEY. I have to get it together, and remember that it's not about being like so & so that is a workout queen with a killer body and major self discipline. It is about daily choices, taken one at a time and pushing myself to the point of SUCCESS and positive feelings. Those little choices will make a big difference. If I become aware of them, and hold myself accountable for my choices, I truly believe things can change. Cheesy to say but "if it is to be, it's up to me."

I posted a desperate ad on facebook for an early morning workout friend, and now I have a few! This morning my friend Susan and I woke up at 645 and worked out. I am NOT a morning person, and it felt so great to start my day off on the right foot, instead of working out later at night to make up for the crap I ate that day, I worked out early and made good choices because I felt great.

PLEASE PLEASE LESLEE, remember how good that feels, and how crappy you feel right now in your big jeans and remember that you CAN and WILL do this one moment at a time. Even if it is already close to swim suit time and you're not where you want to be.. you've got to start somewhere and NOW is the time.

Peace.

Consistency......

Why do I struggle so bad with being consistent with ANYTHING..

spiritual
personal
working out
eating healthy

anything that I set my mind to.. I KILL IT for a good solid month.. then it's like I'm bored with it and onto something else.... or just give up.

I get a mind set of NO EXCUSES...
I truly have no excuses, just laziness and boredom. I have honestly never pushed myself (physically) harder than I can do. EVER.... I know if I did, it would feel amazing and that would get me hooked. I almost feel like I am in my "safe" zone. And just don't take the risk.

I have LIVED outside of my comfort zone in so many areas of my life, especially professionally. I enjoy a challenge and love to get a task done!

My focus, is to have consistency and have a state of mind that I CAN push myself and continue to physically challenge my mind and gain control of the thoughts that slow me down.

One day at a time.
Instead of trying so hard to reach my "goals" .. I will just start with being consistent and challenging myself. Instead of feeling overwhelmed by all these goals.

xoxo
Les