Losing Leslee?

No more ambien = no more drug induced blog posts about losing weight.

I have not been doing awesome. In fact, I weigh more than I ever have. However, that has caused me to do some serious thinking. Good things to come....

Peace.

I love you Zumba

Most of you know how much I LOVE me some Zumba. Well it's been about 9 months since I've gone consistently. No, I'm not prego. BUT my dear friend Rhonda (my Zumba BFF) got prego (YAY) and had a beautiful baby last month. This means she will get to go back again in January. I now feel like my life is put back together and can enjoy Zumba. Now, she is not the reason I quit going to Zumba.. I just got LAZY and thought I was comfortable where I was at. And now I'm uncomfortable, in tight clothes, feeling like a crazy person. Rhonda has been one of the only people I know that has helped me continue working out. She gives me that sense of accountability. At the end of the day, it's all up to me. But, it sure helps to have a buddy. HOORAY!

So, instead of a post about how lazy and terrible I've been and deep thoughts about what I know I should do... I am going to make some reasonable goals and hope you will all help me be accountable for them.

*These are NOT New Years resolutions. I hate those... never have been something I do. Just some workout goals that happen to start right about now.

1. Stop focusing on what I didn't do

2. Zumba it up 2x week

3. Drink lots of water

4. Get better sleep

5. Weight train at least once a week

These are maybe not the goals you would set for yourself. However, I feel they are goals that I can achieve and feel good about. So, here's to accountability.

Boo-Yah!

To be or not to be...

Remember my last post in SEPTEMBER? When I said, I feel gross and need to work out more? Don't worry. I haven't seen the gym since late August. That is right, I said AUGUST. I stopped caring. I figured working out and eating healthy was inconvenient.

How ungrateful of me. I should be treating this healthy, beautiful female body of mine like I appreciate it. I see so many people that aren't able to walk, or unable to do a full workout due do a disability. Yet, here I sit with a perfectly healthy body... and let it rot. While Cold Stone makes a fortune off of me.

I still don't really feel motivated to eat better, let alone work out. However, my body aches, I sleep like SHIZ, I don't have any energy during the day, and lets face it I don't feel good about myself. Oh, and all of my clothes are tight. It seems overwhelming when I think about the fact that I'll have to eat like a rabbit the rest of my life in order to avoid this feeling. Or, that I'll have to fake tan, get fake eyelash extensions, (already got the boobies part down) and become a typical gym rat that takes two hours to get ready for the gym, in order to get where I think I should be.

You see, it's just that. "Where I think I SHOULD be" is what gets me down. I look at others and think, that is going to take a LOT of work. And then I give up. Why do I have to be what others are? I don't. I know better. I need to get my mind frame back to this:

1. TRY-ing is better than nothing
2. It takes one second to make a good eating decision over a bad. The feeling afterwards is INCREDIBLE.
3. Sleep is my best friend, why am I not working out so I can get better sleep?
4. My boobs hate me when I work out, I need a SUPER sports bra.. anyone?
5. I don't have to be perfect, or skinny, just happy with myself. The inner confidence will shine brightly.
6. Getting in a routine is the most important. NO excuses.
7. It's not about my weight, it's about being toned, in shape, and happy!
8.You bet Dance Central counts as a workout at my house!

Time to get my flabby ass in gear. I got a golds pass... anyone go to the Spanish Fork Golds??

SICK

I feel so bloated and gross...

I've gained 5lbs since July

I eat like SHIZ and hardly ever workout

I drink regular soda every day

My clothes fit a little tighter

I have a double chin

I need someone to FORCE me to be consistent

I need to be locked in a room and starved.

Damnit.

How's that for negativity??

HOWEVER, I know I am beautiful. Inside and out. It's not about being skinny, it's about feeling good and healthy. I have very poor discipline. Talk is cheap, I need to get in gear. I feel like I've fallen into a butt crack and need to get outta there, FAST.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

HOW do you mothers balance kids, cleaning, laundry, husbands, dinner AND still manage to workout and eat healthy? Most of the women I know that are in the BEST shape, are mothers. I can hardly manage all of that with myself, Chance and the dog. So, I've spend the last few weeks thinking about going to the 5:45 am turbo kick class at Sweaty Chix so that the workout part is done before I even start my day. I went this past Friday, and it KICKED my trash. I loved it.

SO, Monday's I'm going to Zumba or Hip Hop at night (also at Sweaty Chix) and then Wednesday and Friday mornings at 5:45 am I'll do the killer turbo class or whatever it's called. I can't remember, all I know is my body will never forget... HA. And they also have this class on Saturday mornings it's called Circut Shock at like 7am. It is my FAVORITE workout class in the world. NEVER crowded and is always a killer workout. If we're not out of town, I'll be doing that one as well.

If any of you ladies are going to these classes, please let me know. I'd love to join you! I am also going to start eating A LOT less after 5pm. This will help me lose weight, instead of maintain the weight I'm at..... like I've done for the past year. NOT on purpose. I just struggle eating well and working out together, as I've mentioned in my previous blog posts. Well, here's to feeling good. Even if I make a million mistakes along the way, I will NEVER give up.

Peace

Disappeared...

Sorry I have fallen off the face of the blogging earth. Most of you are my Facebook friends, so you know I am still alive. I have been so overwhelmed with planning girls camp and expectations that I have let myself go quite a bit. I have not gained any weight, but I haven't worked out hardly at all since the last week in June. EWWW.

I really enjoy working out, I can finally say that for the first time in my life. I am finally done with camp and summer craziness that I'm ready to get back on track. I started a group that is going to go to the local high school and run bleachers or the track once a week. I have also committed with a friend to go to Sweaty Chix at 545 am for a tae bo-ish type workout at least 2 times a week. I am also going to go to Sweaty Chix's Hip Hop Hustle class on Monday nights.

ACCOUNTABILITY is the key for me. I have a ton of Real Estate school hours to get done before the end of September, so early morning workouts are going to work best for me. I love working out early, it starts my day off just right.

So, here we go!

Must go together...

Working Out + Eating Right = Awesomeness!

I am doing one or the other..... I never combine the two. I am lazy, full of excuses, and wasting time unless I do them BOTH together.

I quit drinking soda over a week ago. I feel incredible. Things in my body feel better, I am sleeping better.. etc. I haven't had the desire to have a drink.. I sound like an alkee..

I've been going to a new zumba class at Energy Explosion.. loving it. Not crowded (removes the "I will sock you if you don't back off and stop breathing your zumba all over me" rages) and also a fun teacher!

I have also been meeting up with my awesome, dedicated friend, Susan. She comes over 2 times a week at 6:45 am to work out with me. Those are my BEST days. I make better eating choices because I work out early.. instead of working out later at night to make up for calories I shouldn't have had that day.. I'm finally feeling like I am doing these things because I like them and not because I "should".

ps.. going to Lake Powell in 2 weeks... not even close to where I want to be at. BUT.. I'm 10 lbs down from February. SOMETHING is better than nothing.

I have a sign I wrote, next to my bedside that says "just do what you can Leslee". I expect too much of myself, I drive myself crazy. I was saying my prayers a few months ago and that was the answer to my prayers.. it came to my mind right after the prayer. "Just do what you can, Leslee."

It helps me a ton.

xoxo
Les